11/20/22

We are camping in Flin Mississippi and I am aware just how much weight I've gained. I am not proud of this. I am fully aware that the 340 pound girl could not have slept in this bed. But still I am not proud of the person I am. I am not proud that I woke up this morning and my jeans were hard to put on. I know what that means. We have Thanksgiving, and Christmas and food is always around so grazing is soooooo easy to do. I want to show more self control and be more responsible for my body. Last night we had a potluck and I ate way too much, came back and slept it off instead of walking it off. I think about food way too often now. I still can't eat a lot in one sitting but I can eat more than I should. I am grateful for this tool I have and should act more like it. This morning I am making pancake, eggs, and sausage so it's important that I pay attention my body or I'll be miserable. I don't like my clothes not fitting, but it is just one part that tells me how I'm doing. I have lots of more evidence for how bad I'm doing. Today is a new day with new promises and new opportunities.