May is here

Today is May 2nd, in 4 days it will be 3 years since I met the love of my life.  My husband now of a little over a year, met me when I was at one of my more heavier times.  We sparked instantly and there hasn't been a day since that we haven't spoken to each other.  The fact that this man fell in love with me just the way I was has meant the world to me.  I am hoping to be as close to my goal weight as possible by our 2 year anniversary.  I almost half way there in less than 5 months. And I have another 8 months to lose the rest, even if I can just get under 200 pounds by then.  There is still more that I need to do. I struggle to keep from feeling faint during the day. Like we work for a bit and I feel icky inside, and it just becomes a recognition of who I was.  I have been fat most of my life. I don't remember a time growing up where I was not fat. Being fat comes with other side effects like just no energy and I often feel like I just don't want to do anything. Everything seems hard to do.